Prepare , preparing and be prepared.

 She cleans, before she leaves.

She clean and remove part of her stuff.

As if, she will be gone.

Soon.

Who knows.

No one knows.

But leaving, is inevitable. 

How People Attitude Kills Others

 

Dealing with people really drained you mentally. Its a silent suffering no matter how much you claim you are people oriented.

This line required someone with selfless nature. Not all could cope with it. Many stop in the middle. Not even worth to sacrifice your peace of mind.

Ketakutan & Kepunyaan

Dunia ni terlalu banyak perkara untuk dilepaskan. Antara perkara yang terbesar adalah ;
Ketakutan untuk tidak mempunyai, atau mempunyai.

Kepunyaan ; definisi itu merujuk kepada hak milik.
To begin with, we never own things.  
We are nothing.

Seraya membesar, masyarakat secara umumnya selalu memomokkan dengan ketakutan ketidakcukupan sesuatu perkara. Secara tak langsung, membuatkan kita terdorong untuk memilik perkara tersebut.
Sudah memiliki , ada yang terlupa. Langsung merasakan berhak lebih dari apa yang sepatutnya.

I dont want anything.
I dont want to own anything.
I just want to die, with nothing in terms of worldly possesion.

I've seen so many people felt entitled and say or do wrong to others. 

Apa guna harta , jika ada hati yang tercalar. 

Dan elok benarlah jika orang melihat kita ini seperti tak mempunyai apa-apa, lebih-lebih lagi untuk kepentingan diri. Nak didekati tak mahu, nak dijauhi tak tahu. 

Benarlah, kejar dunia ni ibarat minum air laut. Makin minum, makin dahaga kita dibuatnya.

" Cukuplah Allah bagiku, tidak ada Tuhan selain Dia, hanya kepada-Nya aku bertawakkal dan Dia adalah Tuhan pemilik 'Arsy yang Agung."

Detach 101 : Teh Ais

 detach of things that could make you feel you depend on it.
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101 : Teh Ais

This is my 6th day of not having it more than I should.
Not more than 1 cup a day.
Or none for a day.

Let's bring it to a month. 

On day 4; Slowly felt intolerable with small things.  I get angry easily. Felt so irritated with humans.

Light headed. 

I even wear my trouser back sided. Oh my. My brain really disfunction a bit.

The withdrawal syndrome really kicks in. 

Its okay. Let's do this.
I can detach myself with this addictive routine. (Please admit, it you can't live without it - it can be considered as addictive..) 

I can do this.

let's slowly detach with things.

I don't want to have a must have thing anymore in my life.

I'm done with this world.

It's never enough.

94:5-6

 

فَإِنَّ مَعَ الْعُسْرِ يُسْرًا , إِنَّ مَعَ الْعُسْرِ يُسْرًا

“Maka sesungguhnya bersama kesulitan ada kemudahan. Sesungguhnya bersama kesulitan ada kemudahan” 

(QS. Al-Insyirah: 5-6)

When I was in my highschool years, I always wondered.. Why babah keep on reciting surah Al-Insyirah during jama'ah maghrib prayer. Is it because it's easy? Is it because it was one of the short surah?

But when I'm getting older..

I realised on the other perspective...

Maybe it just one of the way of babah comforts himself in hard times?

Being adults there're so much things that we couldn't say out loud tho how hard it was.

Idk.

It left me speechless whenever this thought came out to my mind.

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May Allah grant Jannah towards my parents.